Update

I wish I had something exciting to post but all I have had since my last post is checkups with no change and one expensive false alarm this past Sunday. The Dr. promises I won't go beyond 41 weeks so I guess I have a deadline of a little more than 2 weeks at the most. I honestly have no idea how I will make it, I know it won't be on my strength. After my checkup today I had an emotional breakdown in the car on the way home. I know I have absolutely NO reason to feel sorry for myself but that actually makes it worse because on top of feeling sorry for myself I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself. Wicked nasty cycle I have going on here :-). I KNOW that God's will and timing are perfect but that hasn't made today any easier. If it was time for Gavin to come out he would and I know that the Dr. and the Lord have his and my best interests, health wise, in mind.

So, back to the Dr. on Monday where I will tell myself not to get my hopes up but I will anyway and then get SO upset afterwards because once again, NO CHANGE. Sorry, I know I am a downer today, but Clay is sick of hearing it I am sure and since I can't see any of you roll your eyes, you get to listen to it.

On a happy note, in 2 weeks or less I will get to post millions of pictures of the most precious child that the good Lord has ever created. I CAN NOT WAIT!!!!!

Love,
Emily